Finally!

Today I heard my favorite song on the radio and it didn't hurt like it used to - and that is enough reason to blog. It didn't remind me of someone.... It was such a liberating feeling - I love having my life back! I've been staying away from blogging for the same reason, but I miss it and I want to come back. I think one of my best friend's, K, would agree right now that life sucks when you have to deal with heartbreak. I think it's easier to just not let go of your heart in the first place - to guard it a little more carefully - not love so freely. That is not in my nature, and it's not in her's either. I think God gives us best friends, though, to remind us that there is goodness out there, and to keep loving and keep believing in people. And in my case, He gave me a best friend that would teach me how to be strong, so that I could teach her only a few months later. Someone once told me that you never really get over someone until you fall in love again. I think that is a death trap. My advice is this - Heal first, so you can be 100% yourself when you fall in love again, not bring any baggage with you, and fall for someone who you really love and not someone who you love just because he resembles the last guy that you are still in love with. Ok, enough about love...

Life has been great for me. I just got into graduate school at BYU, I get to see my best friend every day, and everything that once seemed broken is starting to become whole again. Sure, I still have trials in my life, but things are getting better - way better. I felt a new start coming over me when I came to Utah and in line with that, I have mended some friendships, ended some that needed to be ended, and met a ton of new people. Some days life is so simple that I just have to laugh - my life has never been this simple. For instance, the other day, I went to a random class, met up with my best friend for a cinnamon roll, then went for a drive through the canyon. When I stopped, I rolled down the window, hung my head out, putting my feet on the passenger's seat and just let the sun hit my face. It was such a warm day for January in Utah. It was a perfect day!